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When Love Takes Over

this is my SONG !!

No PLace Like Home..

a beautiful song written and sung by R&B group Ahmir..

RIHANNA GIVES LIFE !!

I cant even begin to explain the fucking fierceness !!

JUST LOOK !!

"That rihanna reign just wont let up!"

(thanks to Rihanna Daily where you can also read the interview and view her full spread)

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh !

I have so many thoughts and ideas running around in my head!

I think February will be the month to test alot of ideas out. January is, well, TOO stressful already. With school starting in a week and some days, and rehearsals. I hope i can pull these ideas off. i want to start becoming more proactive in my life. Im thinking videos, and websites first to start getting more comfortable..


cant wait to see what happens..

i wish..

Scott Mescudi was in my phonebook *sigh*

hello world

I am shahirah, your visiting blogger.

QUEEN B & LADY GAGA

Hmmm..

"There'll always be HATERS, that's the way it is. Hater niggas marry hater bitches and have hater Kids .."

i aint gon' beg you..

i finally woke up earlier than 3 in the afternoon.

listening to fantasia's free yourself album.

laying in bed doing nothing is really relaxing, i just wish i had my own space.

just got called a bitch.

im cold. (inside and out.)

" baby you got me waiting.. "

my life. my life. MY LIFE

...

ive seen/heard this..

TOO MANY TIMES !

am i finna be like this ??

"Your the perfect verse, Over a tight beat"

have you ever felt.. like someone is perfect for you? lol. well.. that might sound a lil crazy but.. lol. since most of my friends would think im crazy if i told them this.. i decided to blog it.. so theres this guy, lets call him "The Mane" and ive liked him for 5 years before we started really talking. and.. he makes me feel like.. a way.. ive never felt before. like it feels RIGHT between us. ive never met someone that i have so much in common with. and click with so much. he gives me butterflies when i see, text, talk to him, or even when someone brings his name up. he takes my breath away "/. *sigh**sigh**sigh*. hes different from anyone ive ever met. he doesnt see how amazing he is, thats only cuz he cant see thru my eyes "/.


ok ok.. let me shut up. i just needed to get that off my chest before i went crazy

why is ke$ha my bitch ?

FUUUUUCK WITTTTH HERRRRRRRRRR !!

is it weird how this might be another reason why i love men? lol

"ill suck you clean no homo!"



ahahah "i'll touch your muffins"

Right now

I'm fuckin' with Amerie tough. She seems to kno how to express every feeling im feeling in her songs.. & Not so much Amerie's new cd. but her 1st & 2nd cd's. (more of the 1st). songs like "Why dont we fall in Love" "Talkin'" & "I just died".. speak volumes. so shouts out to Amerie, even tho shes still under the radar after HELLA years.. but hey.. i guess everybody cant be BEYONCE! (Lol im horrible)



XoXo

this Blog..

is starting to sound a lil emo *cough**cough* SCOTTIE.. shit. lol. goddamn, im suppose to be the emo Cancer, duh. Cool it down. Jesus Christ



Meanwhile.... Idk lol. just had to break this emo streak a tad.

have you ever..

felt alone?

i do. it sucks

and here we go again..

i thought about writing a new post, but then remembered that what i want to say was basically written a year ago.

so since im in the bringing from the past kind of mood ill share with you a snippet of a past blog entry..

"you never want to admit to yourself that your lonely. well, at least not to other people. you want to have a sense of strength that you dont need a damn man to make you happy, but in actuality it wouldn't hurt to feel his hands touch your skin. sending nerves all over your body. you want to turn in he middle of the night and find your man's bare chest moving up and down rhythmically with his breathing moving you as well as you place your hand on him. im strong. i can proudly say that i am strong. BUT, i yearn for more. i yearn for a sense of protection i have never had. when he hugs me i want it to feel like a thousand men are surrounding me from the world and nothing bad will ever happen. i know its not reality but a guy can still dream .... right?"

like many, i thought i could erase my insecurities with what i thought at the time would help but it didn't. i thought back then that my "prince charming" was going to magically appear and be all i want and need in a man. as i grew up last year i turned my focus on myself, i cant expect someone to come and love me when i dont even love myself. the only reason why i want him to come to me is because i cant find the courage or confidence to approach him. and then i thought, what if he does come to me, im only going to try and play the games i saw my friends play time and time and probably turn him off. that wouldnt have been me.

i put on a facade because im scared. im scared of rejection, im scared to become close to anyone. im scared of the truth from others so i repeat negative things in my head so i can get accustomed. i basically put myself through hell in hopes that someone will save me. i cant do that anymore.

its time to grow up

go head RIRI ! i see you..

and i also see your new boo Matt Kemp =)

..tho he reminds me of a certain man i try not to think about.

we fucks with astrology ! lol

dont hate on who its coming from because chris is actually pretty on point !

love that bitch ! *hairflip*

YOU . BETTA . WORK !!

this fierce bitch inspires me sooo much =)

never gets old

hmmm..

just caught this at necole bitchie

uggh ! i wanna feel a mans touch too ! lol lucky bitch..

*sigh*

it gets old ! lmao

about a year ago i did a post on my first blog and the subject was "love". before i start to ramble i must say that although i have learned a great deal about myself in the past year and found out how other people view love, my thoughts haven't necessarily changed on the matter. have you ever thought about how much power people seem to give to this "feeling" or "emotion"? not only love, but negativity. when something good happens we feel happy but something small can ruin it. now if something bad happens, we can have all the good happen in one day and we would still be down. whats going on? why are we so fixated on the negative when in retrospective the positive should always reign.

however, i for one cant stand it when im constantly being told to "focus on the positive" because im so guilty for being a downer at times. yes i understand "things can be worse" but sometimes you just feel like your at the bottom, you know? i guess we are all guilty.

now back to love. why oh why must everything be about love?! i guess im really bitter because i dont have a man, but for right now its soooo annoying how much power we give it. when we dont have it, thats all we think about but as soon as we grasp it we get comfortable and start to realize its true meaning for ourselves.(from what i have witness)

that being said, why is love one of the few things that will make us happy? is it so we feel connected with someone else - or to find comfort in our insecurities? how do we know its real? and if it is real, how can we have it last? only time will tell for me, but some of you with a significant other will soon figure it out. and when you do please tell me because im tired of being bitter.. it gets old ! lmao

Saaaaaaangin'

so im up extremely early in the morning right now. 8am to be exact, is that early for other people or is it just me? anywho, im lounging in my bed watching bolt and making my rounds at the blogs when i spot a video of sang your heart out fierce bitch, tiffany evans..

this girl has soooooo much talent, its a shame that labels dont know how to promote unless they see a gimmick =( its cool tho, she will get her grammy's soon enough !

Thinking..

& if you could see yourself thru my eyes, you'd kno exactly why i feel this way.. *sigh*



its 6:18am, & im still not asleep. I downloaded this bitch ass blog app just so i could post this, this piece of shit doesnt even capitalize shit. & i cant post pics.. piece of shit.. (sorry lol). but.. i was just thinking about how crazy it is that someone can make you feel certain ways.. like give you butterflies, or take your breath away. and how even smelling their scent can make you feel this way too.. crazy. its really the best feeling in the world. i dont ever want it to go away..



*sigh* "you make me delirious.. thats when i start to FALL, somethin' serioussss .."



yeah, well.. i guess ill go to sleep now :-*



XoXo

Mr. Solo Dolo

Ok.. this man Scott Mescudi is.. the best man, the best. I can't even begin to describe my love for him (lol I sound crazy) but its the truth. His music speaks me like noother. Some people say he's "odd" but, shit.. I'm odd too lol. Ill never forget seeing him at his show in San Fransisco..

and ill never forget.. MEETING HIM!! Yes. Meeting him. Me & my friend Shahirah decided to leave after KiD CuDi's set, because well.. it was all the way crazy in there, and all the drunk white people were trying to kill me! Lol.. so were walking out and I give this security guard my number, cuz he said he was going to give it to CuDi (lol I kno right "/) but anyways.. Shahirah says.. "let's go down this alley way, there's a door on the side" so we go, and we start asking this old ass security guard if Cudder is still in there (he doesn't even kno who were talking about lol) so he opens the door.. and Shahirah looks in and.. OUT. COMES.. CUDI!

Omg! I couldn't breathe. We were speechless.. He was drunk, and said he wasn't cudi but his alter ego.. I forgot the name lol.. but he was Cudi and I couldn't breathe lol.. we gave him hugs and we took this pic (excuse my hair "/)..

I still can't believe it. Lol. Great night.. *sigh* I can't wait until I spark up a blunt with Cudder, :). Ill be blogging a lot about him. Hopefully one day he'll stumble upon this here blog, and fuck wit ya girl! Lol

Beauty 1

"Beneath the makeup and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the world .."

Rosa Acosta..

Now thas a bad, a Bad bitch

i left..

my head & my heart on the dance floor

soo.. new years eve

was pretty eventful.. but someone lost their life 2 hours shy of 2010.. which leads me to the topic of.. Why?: why cant mufuckas ever have fun? its like, people dont care about others well being, even with a new year approaching.. why do things ever have to reach that point, to actually kill someone else?.. their life is gone, and they will never see another day. now the young mans family has a loss at the beginning of a brand spankin' new year. why? because bitch ass niggas cant ever settle shit without bringin' out a gun, which just shows how less of a man they really are..



R.I.P Emmanuel Pickens

a fierce and FRESH start to the new year..

and what better way to start it off by running far far way from 2009..


in fierce Report Signature over the knee boots !