it gets old ! lmao

about a year ago i did a post on my first blog and the subject was "love". before i start to ramble i must say that although i have learned a great deal about myself in the past year and found out how other people view love, my thoughts haven't necessarily changed on the matter. have you ever thought about how much power people seem to give to this "feeling" or "emotion"? not only love, but negativity. when something good happens we feel happy but something small can ruin it. now if something bad happens, we can have all the good happen in one day and we would still be down. whats going on? why are we so fixated on the negative when in retrospective the positive should always reign.

however, i for one cant stand it when im constantly being told to "focus on the positive" because im so guilty for being a downer at times. yes i understand "things can be worse" but sometimes you just feel like your at the bottom, you know? i guess we are all guilty.

now back to love. why oh why must everything be about love?! i guess im really bitter because i dont have a man, but for right now its soooo annoying how much power we give it. when we dont have it, thats all we think about but as soon as we grasp it we get comfortable and start to realize its true meaning for ourselves.(from what i have witness)

that being said, why is love one of the few things that will make us happy? is it so we feel connected with someone else - or to find comfort in our insecurities? how do we know its real? and if it is real, how can we have it last? only time will tell for me, but some of you with a significant other will soon figure it out. and when you do please tell me because im tired of being bitter.. it gets old ! lmao